I’ve been awake since 1.30am and i’m so tired but also feeling like my world is slit in two! I being blamed for the absence of the carer most of the week apparently I should not have warned her about her late attendance record, as now she isn’t showing up at all!!
And dad is really pissed off with me he says that i shouldn’t stick my nose in where its not wanted, i always do it and that’s why people don’t want to be bothered with me, I think he is right people don’t want to know and i wish i didn’t agree to have been the supporting employer for my dad’s direct payment agreement.
Its so quiet i wish the voices weren’t there and i wish sometimes i didnt’ feel how i do about myself!