Daily Archives: 13 Feb 2018

Nearly missed today!

Yesterday really wasn’t a wonderful day for me and I just didn’t feel I was a part of anything no one wanted to chat as they were all to busy and I ended up, down the cemetery sitting at mum’s grave. The GP has taken away some of dad’s medication we relied on to stop his pain because he said it could cause problems with dad’s heart, but when I asked about alternative pain relief the reply was just call 999.

What they really mean is it’s not our problem yesterday afternoon he was in so much pain I couldn’t do anything just tell him it would be ok, again the carer didn’t show up for work so everything was left to me again.

I need support to you know I’m struggling and no one is listening one bit i really don’t take medication just because it’s something to do? Some of those drugs keep me alive although if I combined them in the right manner that role can easily be reversed.

And I think about it every day these days.

12.30 am

At 12.30 am I’m still wide awake I just can’t sleep I’ve cleared one laptop and updated its drivers spending 7 hours in total just sorting 1 of 2 laptops out for the young lady! I saw her this morning and her gorgeous smile made me think why I fancy her just so so much! I just wish she would reconsider?

Decided to visit mum after dropping sarah off told her how I felt I was a massive disappointment to everyone including dad and my brother and everyone else it seems, I told her I’d decided to go back to what I was good at and see how it goes.